ruiner - nothing,nowhere.

[00:00.0]ruiner (废墟) - nothing,nowhere.
[00:32.0]It's the young Edgar Allan spitting live from the basement
[00:34.92]Do it for the love give a f**k about the payment
[00:37.55]If I'm being honest I don't know what I'm chasing
[00:39.97]Need a space to place my thoughts and the songs the location
[00:43.09]I'm f**king sick of writing all these sad songs
[00:45.34]But I'm just being real it's how I feel word is bond
[00:48.58]I just wanna let you know you're not alone
[00:50.58]That I know what it's like when you never leave your home
[00:53.35]When you can't get out of bed can't even check your phone
[00:56.05]Can't even lift your head like your bones are made of stone
[00:58.83]When everyone you know is asking why you're feeling low
[01:01.28]But you can't tell 'em why 'cause you don't even know
[01:03.84]I got radio execs tryna say what's best
[01:06.51]I got pressure coming down got me overly stressed
[01:09.14]I got suicidal thoughts floating thru' my head
[01:11.76]I got people from the past probably hoping I'm dead
[01:15.91]Oh no what's your mama gonna say
[01:18.68]When I tell her that I broke your heart
[01:22.45]It's just things aren't the way that they used to be
[01:26.59]Oh no now you're crying on the bathroom floor
[01:30.07]And I guess it's the end
[01:33.229996]Well I lost my mind then I lost my best friend
[01:36.66]Yeah so what if I did and what if I didn't
[01:39.25]I just wish I wasn't stuck between decisions
[01:41.91]I just wish I didn't feel like something's missing
[01:44.509995]I just need to get outside this mental prison
[01:47.18]3am and I'm stuck in a rut
[01:49.229996]Seems like every time I leave I end up thinking of us
[01:51.9]I keep f**king with your head like a lobotomy
[01:54.44]I lost it all and you'll always be a part of me
[01:57.04]And can you feel the pain when you wake up
[01:59.880005]Late again and it's dark out
[02:02.25]I don't even know where it came from
[02:05.19]Can't escape got me feeling down
[02:07.73]I remember days in the hometown
[02:10.6]Things change when you come around
[02:12.86]Now they're just memories now
[02:15.87]Keep feeling up then I feel down
[02:19.93]Oh no what's your mama gonna say
[02:22.59]When I tell her that I broke your heart
[02:26.54001]It's just things aren't the way that they used to be
[02:30.58]Oh no now you're crying on the bathroom floor
[02:34.02]And I guess it's the end
[02:37.19]Well I lost my mind then I lost my best friend