Once an Addict (Interlude) - J. Cole

[00:01.21]Right, right, right, right
[00:11.59]Something's got a hold on me (right)
[00:15.77]Right, right,
[00:19.91]Sometimes I think pain is just a lack of understanding
[00:24.40]If we could only understand it all,
[00:27.36]Would we feel no pain? (Would we feel no pain?)
[00:30.49]Would we feel no pain?
[00:31.77]God must feel no pain
[00:33.62]Something's got a hold on me
[00:38.29]Only joy
[00:41.19]Does this mean even our suffering pleases him?
[00:45.21]Lost in a cloud of *********
[00:47.03]Young Carolina *****, fish out of water
[00:49.37]Step-daddy just had a daughter with another woman
[00:52.23]Mama ain't recover yet
[00:53.31]Callin' me at 12 at night
[00:55.20]She drunk as **** and I'm upset
[00:56.46]'Cause why she always using me for crutch?
[00:58.32]Growin' up I used to always see her up
[01:00.35]Late as ****, cigarette smoke
[01:02.02]And greatest hits from Marvin Gaye
[01:03.49]She kill a whole bottle of some cheap chardonnay
[01:06.03]I gotta leave this house
[01:07.18]'Cause part of me dies when I see her like this
[01:09.42]Too young to deal with pain
[01:10.66]I'd rather run the streets than see her kill herself
[01:12.75]So 'Ville became my escape from a feelin' I hate
[01:15.74]Mama cursing me out
[01:16.92]Depression's such a villainous state
[01:18.62]I used to stay out later on purpose
[01:20.88]Subconsciously I was nervous that
[01:22.38]If I came home early
[01:23.44]Then what would surface was her inner demons
[01:25.94]And then I'd have to end up seein' my hero on ground zero
[01:29.12]Tears flow where Al Green blow
[01:30.67]Love and happiness
[01:31.78]I wish that I could say the right words to cheer her up
[01:34.28]I wish her son's love was enough
[01:36.02]I tell her, "Mama, go to sleep"
[01:37.79]She tell me "Boy, hush. You better pray to God
[01:40.40]You never get your heart crushed"
[01:41.93]I shake my head in frustration
[01:43.37]Head to my room
[01:44.30]And I can still hear the tunes of my door shut
[01:46.34]**** it though, a couple more months I'll be gone
[01:49.03]Off to college and dorms
[01:50.58]Foolin' myself, thinkin' problems are gone
[01:52.78]But now it's 1 AM and my mama diallin' my phone
[01:55.62]I know she intoxicated and soon this high
[01:57.86]That I'm on comes crashin' down
[01:59.90]She lit, talkin' drunk ****, I'm pissed
[02:02.07]But I'm still all ears like "Pass the ounce"
[02:04.17]Thinkin' to myself, "Maybe my mama need help
[02:06.54]Don't she got work it the morning?
[02:07.86]Why she do this to herself?
[02:09.08]Hate how she slurrin' her words
[02:10.70]Soundin' so ******' absurd
[02:12.06]This ain't the woman I know
[02:13.41]Why I just sit and observe?
[02:15.04]Why don't I say how I feel?
[02:16.41]When I do, she's defensive for real
[02:18.18]Well maybe things get better with time, I heard it heals"
[02:21.05]Little did I know how deep her sadness would go
[02:23.98]Lookin' back, I wish I woulda did more instead of running
[02:26.67]Something's got a hold on me
[02:31.50]I can't let it go
[02:34.35]Out of fear I won't be free
[02:38.60]Something's got a hold on me
[02:42.89]I can't let it go
[02:45.63]Out of fear I won't be—
[02:49.32]No!
[02:49.86]Something's got a hold on me
[02:54.26]I can't let it go
[03:00.45]Right (right)
[03:02.59]Life can bring much pain (right right)
[03:06.57]There are many ways to deal with this pain (right)
[03:11.28]Choose wisely (right)