Break Down - Vin Jay

[00:00.38]Break Down (Explicit) - Vin Jay
[00:01.7]Lyrics by：Vincent Jacovelli
[00:02.53]Composed by：Vincent Jacovelli
[00:11.1]Hey livin' like a mess tryna numb my pain
[00:14.42]Battlin' the demons in my mind all day
[00:17.1]Either I'm ****** up or I'm insane
[00:19.56]Pop a pill have a drink don't break down
[00:21.99]Hey livin' like a mess tryna numb my pain
[00:25.26]Battlin' the demons in my mind all day
[00:27.98]Either I'm ****** up or I'm insane
[00:30.4]Pop a pill have a drink don't break down
[00:33.1]Let's flash back to a moment in time
[00:34.93]When I was just a troubled youth tryna cope with his mind
[00:37.66]With psychedelics c*****e and some smokin aside
[00:40.53]When I was broke and overdosed and was hopin' to die
[00:43.26]Yeah I guess the damaged of feelin' ****** abandoned
[00:46.21]Left me torn so I was slammin'
[00:47.72]Like every drug I was handed
[00:49.18]I managed 'til I ran out then ravaged through my dad's house
[00:51.88]Gather all my **** so I could sell it
[00:53.86]For a bag now
[00:54.88]I couldn't tell that I was losin' myself
[00:56.87]And that the drugs only added to confusion I felt
[00:59.59]And when the homies hit me up I was refusing to help
[01:02.52]'Cause I was busy tryna make a ****** noose with a belt
[01:05.83]But I was lonely and sick of feelin' depressed
[01:08.15]I was runnin' out of options
[01:09.4]And ways to cope with the stress
[01:10.93]I thought I'd feel bliss when the reaper came to collect
[01:13.49]'Cause I'm done with the pain
[01:14.87]I'd rather hang to my death and say
[01:16.29]Hey livin' like a mess tryna numb my pain
[01:19.87]Battlin' the demons in my mind all day
[01:22.55]Either I'm ****** up or I'm insane
[01:25.25]Pop a pill have a drink don't break down
[01:27.479996]Hey livin' like a mess tryna numb my pain
[01:30.770004]Battlin' the demons in my mind all day
[01:33.479996]Either I'm ****** up or I'm insane
[01:36.020004]Pop a pill have a drink don't break down
[01:38.46]I never thought that my life would end when I'm seventeen
[01:40.93]Now I'm writing notes to my family I thought I'd never leave
[01:43.84]But all this pain I've been feeling
[01:45.4]It's time to set it free
[01:46.509995]Time to turn this torturous life of mine to a severed dream
[01:49.490005]I waited 'til it was late and family was sleepin'
[01:51.92]Was thinkin' 'bout death
[01:52.95]I wasn't thinkin' 'bout 'em grievin'
[01:54.54]I thought that when they read the note they'd understand my reasons
[01:57.15]So I crept downstairs time to finally conquer my demons
[02:00.27]I grabbed the booze plus a bottle of pills
[02:02.59]Ran 'em back up to my room feelin' hollow with chills
[02:05.2]Wasn't nervous I was ready I was confident still
[02:07.95]Put a dozen in my palm and started poppin' to kill
[02:10.57]Yeah I'm finally doing it time to call in the eulogist
[02:13.56]I got what I deserved
[02:14.66]I took my life and I ruined it
[02:16.44]Thirty minutes later my feelin's started to fade
[02:18.99]Went from fallin' out of love to fallin' into my grave
[02:22.08]I'm gettin' woozy and passin' out in my bed
[02:24.26]I was fadin' in and out a few moments away from death
[02:27.3]But somethin' in my stomach was travelin' up my chest
[02:29.93]I just fell to the floor and started puking up red
[02:32.94]And now the medicine is coverin' my hands
[02:35.31]They were drenched in it
[02:36.33]This is not the way that it was planned
[02:38.19]I crawled to my bed I was barely able to stand
[02:40.54001]This is not what I intended I got myself in a jam
[02:43.81]I ****** up I was broken and weak
[02:46.03]I never wanted to die I wanted a moment of peace
[02:48.9]Felt my heart skip a beat when I woke from my sleep
[02:51.67]The next day and saw the suicide note at my feet
[02:54.12]And thought
[02:54.59]Hey livin' like a mess tryna numb my pain
[02:58.0]Battlin' the demons in my mind all day
[03:00.7]Either I'm ****** up or I'm insane
[03:03.0]Pop a pill have a drink don't break down
[03:05.59]Hey livin' like a mess tryna numb my pain
[03:08.9]Battlin' the demons in my mind all day
[03:11.58]Either I'm ****** up or I'm insane
[03:14.24]Pop a pill have a drink don't break down