Several Years - Sik World

[00:15.945]Lately, all I feel is pain
[00:17.642]Feels like my heart doesn't beat the same
[00:19.437]I wanna give up and I just feel stuck in a life that I know I cannot change
[00:23.507]I'm really lonely and feel drained
[00:25.358]Sometimes I feel like a mistake
[00:27.156]I just sit and dwell in my trauma, my life's full of problems, I feel like I might break
[00:31.078]Try to move on, but I just can't
[00:32.839]Breakdown after breakdown
[00:33.929]And, somedays, I wish I could run away just to escape and feel at ease even if it means one day
[00:38.985]Where did my life go wrong?
[00:40.438]I was a happy teen and now I'm in the dark
[00:42.392]Who's sad as hell and always at a loss
[00:44.223]No one could tell I'm drowning in my thoughts
[00:46.236]I'm still lost tryna find purposе
[00:48.112]After all these yеars, I'm still searching
[00:50.036]Hope you forgive me for being a burden
[00:51.949]Self-love is still something that I'm learning
[00:53.951]And I know I lie when I tell you I'm fine
[00:55.866]'Cause nobody knows I'm struggling inside
[00:58.291]Sorry if you see me cry
[01:00.235]It's just I finally realized
[01:01.710]It's been several years
[01:05.061]Since I felt okay
[01:07.276]I'm losing my way and
[01:09.396]It's been several years
[01:12.790]Since I've been on meds
[01:15.041]I still feel depressed and
[01:17.107]It's been several years
[01:20.496]Since I felt alive
[01:22.664]There's no tears to cry and
[01:24.839]It's been several years
[01:28.244]Since I had a friend
[01:30.542]That came and went
[01:33.155]Lately, I feel so depressed
[01:35.012]Tried to get help, but I'm still a mess
[01:37.402]I don't ever rest, I guess I'm stressed
[01:38.964]Got my head down, hands gripping on my neck
[01:41.063]Did I take my last breath?
[01:42.904]Did I walk my last step?
[01:44.569]I'm alive, but inside I am dead
[01:45.992]Look, I lied, I'm not fine 'cause my mind is a wreck
[01:48.155]I saw pictures of me in elementary
[01:49.859]I don't remember teachers ever telling me
[01:51.898]I'd be an adult who senses people's energy
[01:53.790]Being an impact, attract souls who lack empathy
[01:55.825]When I look back, my past brings back bad memories
[01:57.714]Plus, it's so sad, I had to withstand everything
[01:59.509]I felt my last ex thought, you stand next to me
[02:01.563]You stabbed my back and that hurt me bad mentally
[02:03.582]It definitely changed me, but I forgive you
[02:06.003]I understand now that you had your own issues
[02:07.933]Your fear of abandonment really convinced you
[02:09.887]That you weren't enough of the love I would give you
[02:11.850]I tried, but I broke myself tryna fix you
[02:13.771]And now I feel hurt that you couldn't commit to
[02:15.729]Me or the love I would give you
[02:17.581]Nobody knows what I've been through
[02:19.319]It's been several years
[02:22.520]Since I felt okay
[02:24.724]I'm losing my way and
[02:26.758]It's been several years
[02:30.208]Since I've been on meds
[02:32.374]I still feel depressed and
[02:34.535]It's been several years
[02:37.878]Since I felt alive
[02:39.993]There's no tears to cry and
[02:42.193]It's been several years
[02:45.681]Since I had a friend
[02:47.906]That came and went