Hope of Morning - Nightcore

[00:12.68]My mind's a kaleidoscope, it thinks too fast
[00:14.27]Blurs all the colors 'til I can't see past
[00:15.81]The last mistake, the choice I made
[00:17.35]Staring in the mirror with myself to blame
[00:18.87]Sometimes I'm afraid of the thoughts inside
[00:20.11]Nowhere to hide inside my mind
[00:21.80]I'm scared that you'll compare and
[00:23.31]I'll look a lifetime past repair
[00:24.90]I second guess myself to death,
[00:26.44]I re-solicit every step
[00:28.00]What if my words are meaningless?
[00:29.50]What if my heart's misleading this?
[00:30.99]I try to capture every moment as it comes to me
[00:33.63]Bottle up the memories and let them keep me company
[00:42.09]When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
[00:48.12]I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
[00:54.19]And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
[01:00.98]I will not be giving in tonight
[01:08.64]When I'm old and grey, or thirty,
[01:10.13]or whatever happens first,
[01:11.73]I'll need you to reassure me I didn't waste a verse
[01:15.02]Or worse, what if my life's work is reduced to just myself
[01:17.95]Like never let you get a word in,
[01:19.09]while I dissect my mental health
[01:21.08]Or lack thereof, whatever, there's too many things to track
[01:24.18]I really can't remember if I'm insane or insomniac
[01:26.86]Now days, all the kids want crazy, wanna diagnose themselves
[01:29.96]Trade up made up epidemics,
[01:31.41]pass around prescription pills
[01:32.86]But my disorder can't be cured
[01:34.65]by a bottle, blade, or dose
[01:35.99]Self-disgust and selfishness tend to hold me awfully close
[01:39.19]But I don't wanna let you see that,
[01:40.78]I don't want my friends to know
[01:42.17]Self-disgust and selfishness take me everywhere I go
[01:44.96]When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
[01:50.69]I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
[01:56.72]And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
[02:03.54]I will not be giving in tonight
[02:10.12]Try as I might to keep it together
[02:12.71]Why is recovery taking forever
[02:15.74]Fool the whole world, just until I get better
[02:18.83]I'm terrified I'll be faking forever
[02:23.46]On and on I wonder what went wrong inside my head
[02:26.05]I don't have to have the answers, but tonight I wish I did
[02:29.39]All the pain I can't explain away won't fade
[02:32.57]All the secrets silenced by the shame
[02:34.67]Don't make me say it
[02:42.60]Don't make me say it
[02:47.17]When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
[02:53.34]I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
[02:59.47]And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
[03:06.25]I will not be giving in tonight